Posts from the ‘Fear’ Category

Do you want Peace

Have you ever wondered why this is going on in your life? Do you ask the question “why me”?

When the question of why me comes up I right away think of my uncle Bret and his response to that rhetorical question, “why not you”. Some things in life like accidents or diseases will leave you thinking why me. For me in the summer of my life I am working to find meaning to my life. That question leaves me asking the question of “what is my lesson in this”?

Most times the answer to that question take much chewing before the answer is reveled to me. It’s amazing how most things want what you feel you have the least of, time. See when I was young time did not exist in my reality, ok when the street lights came one but that was still different. Time is in the mind just like thoughts of right and wrong. There is a field where right and wrong do not exist, will you meet me there? Rumi

Illustration by Shannon Logan

These questions of why me leave you as the victim of your life, while what’s the lesson gets you searching. The rule of life is simple if you search you will find. Similar in sales if you keep knocking you will get some yes’s.

Peace is not something that you can find a way to, Peace is the way. It’s a way you have to choose, want or accept and that is not always easy because of the desire to be right.

I’ve been right so many times that I’m at a point that I wish I was not right most times. I get my facts from my experiences, if you don’t agree or know something else. I am the type that would like to know, as a student of this game called life.

I choose the bath of least resistance just like electricity does. Not because I’m scared of conflict but because I’ve not found conflict as a good way of resolving differences. So I choose peace. If I had a choice between all the riches of the world or Peace I would choose peace. Reason is your could have

it all

and still not have peace. Yet you having Peace feel like having it all. It’s up to you really, you can be hateful and get more of what you have. The other option is choosing peace and seeing things in a new light.

When my child Lilli got out of hospital after a major car crash she told my wife, what a beautiful sunset. She could have just hung on to her story and been scared to get in car to drive home. Yet instead she found the Peace she sought at a time she needed it the most.



Put your trust in the Creator

Put your trust in the Creator

My spirituality is not as strong as I thought. I learned this at the Grand Canyon’s West Rim today. I know it’s true because my youngest told me I don’t trust her climbing on the Rocks close to the edge.

I do trust her but not my thoughts of something happening to her and God, her Universal Father letting something happen. As her earthly Father I refuse to watch something happen that could kill her.

If she fell my wife said she would have a heart attack. I would have jumped after her. So that leaves Alyssa by her self so how stupid is that, on my part. But this little girl holds a part of my heart.

The moment put me in the mode of something happening while there and emotionally I could not handle it.

The lesson for me is I have to let my kids go on a Spiritual level. Trust they are guided and will be taken care of, always.

I just keep thinking of the bible, “I see the wood, I see the knife, what will be the sacrafice”. Is what I keep asking myself. I told my God that I am not there yet, I could not do what Mohamad did, and be ready to kill his own child.

We left the park as we came, together but I was changed by the experience. Changed because I now know I have a lot of work to do. It’s no different than Alyssa cutting Trucks off, not driving in the center of her lane. The thing about her is she is older and she listens me on these safty levels.

Ths is a choppy post from my phone but I wanted to share how the Grand Canyon pushed me forward in my Spirituality.

“What you won’t do for yourself, you’ll do for your kids”


Do you feel on your own?

I was asked by my wife “are we on our own” meaning do we support each other or more importantly do I support her.

My answer is yes we are on our own. The reason being is we come into this world on our own, we will leave on our own. In addition to being on our own we have lots of people in between that time of birth to death that help us along our journey.

Even though we are on our own we have a creator that I know as GOD who is there with us the whole time. When I think about my GOD he is waiting for me to get out of the way and allow all the glory that is in store for me.

It gets right back to the point of FEAR, and this will stop you from breathing, living and loving if you let it. The whole time the spirit of the living GOD is there willing, ready and able to do all things if we just believe. Not only believe that he will but believe that it has already been done.

While we are on our own don’t we still have the support of our friends and family? I think so because GOD has no power here on earth. Ya I said it, no power here on earth. All of the power comes from the workings of God’s people.

I will give you an example of what I am talking about. I was a temporary employee at a fortune 500 company and was close to my 1 year contact expiring and was going to be let go. I did not worry about this because I have great faith in my work ethic and knew things would work out for me.

The person that worked in my current role decided to move on to another company leaving an open position. This is called free will on the part of the person leaving, God’s will was working as well to provide me with a permanent position with this company. The person knew that I wanted to gain employment so was he also on my side? I think so on some level even thought I think he wanted someone else to be in the position but understood that the best person in the eyes of the person doing the hiring would select the best person for the job.

We tend to give up on things when we are close to being at the finish or as my wife stated the “Door of Bliss”. When we choose what is in our heart is that not bliss? I would say that it is the universe working to give us the Yes principle described in another blog of mine. If that is true do we really make mistakes? They appear to be mistakes but are really all things coming together to give us what we want. Hence is why I told my wife that YES she was turning away at the point when she was the closest. To be honest I have no idea but if she believes it, it is.

While God is her true help meat and I am there for her when she needs it. In some or most cases I don’t know how or for what but I am there. I am never there in the way’s she wants such as talking, walking or saying the right things at the right times. I tend to say the wrong thing at the wrong time, but is it really the wrong time? I don’t really believe in accidents, I believe everything happens for a reason.

Support for me is not supporting them when the going is good or when you support someone for who you want them to be. Supporting someone is knowing that they are going to get through the issue. People want to be loved and trusted the same way that I feel my God supports me. I think we as humans can support our friends and family’s in the same ways but after choose not to because we are lacking in the faith that the person is supporting us.

Thanks Nikki for inspiring this blog