Posts from the ‘Child’ Category

Happy Birthday

This is a re-post:

 
Today is my Birthday and I have graduated from it being about me and my birthday to being about my kids birthday’s. Yes mine is the 11th of June my oldest is the 18th and my youngest is the 21st.

This was one of many lessons that I have learned after Nate Walker’s passing. I do not truly know the lesson 100% but I can tell you this. It means more to me for them to have great memory’s about the day they blessed me. This blessing will be forever so I think the honor in that is what is so special.

I will never forget when I would rush to go wish him a happy birthday June 1st every year because I knew mine was only 10 day’s away. He is the most special man I have every know, well until my mom married my Dad.

My Grandpa Nate (Pops) shares no blood relation with me, but you could not tell him or I that because of how we feel about each other. This part is so important to me because my blood grandpa Charles Logan Sr. was Nate’s best friend during childhood. I remember doing everything with Nate even more so then his own true blood son’s little Nate. It is a very special relationship to me because I lacked a true role model in my life. So GOD blessed me with his wisdom for such a short time. See he died 11/11/97 at 10:10am at the young age of 66 as a Veteran passing on Veterans Day. I was and I am still crushed by this loss because I don’t have this kind of relationship with anyone. The closest is my dad (Donnie), see to love someone like they are your own flesh and blood is the best love you can share with someone when they are not your true flesh and blood. That is how he got the name Pops because he is the closest to Pops I have every seen.

Back to the Birthday stuff. I would wish Pops Happy Birthday and he would say thanks or knowing him he would say nothing. He would reach in to his big wallet and give me money for my birthday. I would say “Pops this is your birthday” he would always reply with “you better come over here and get this while I got it” so I would of course go to get my gift from him. I say him because after giving to me this money he would always say “now you better get over to see your grandma and get what she has for you”. It always touched me that he thought of me on his birthday. I never understood why until I had 2 birthday’s that mean more then mine.

Still to this day my Wife wants to make a big deal out of my Birthday and I am like whatever because I would prefer the kids have the special Birthday. Now this does not mean I don’t appreciate party’s or gifts because I do and look forward to them, I just I just don’t expect them.

Happy Birthday to me but most of all to my Girls Alyssa (AD) and Lilli (Lil)

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>What Would You Do?

>What would you do when some one you would die says you mean less the someone else? Or not in my case but they say they don’t love you at all?

I don’t believe this myself in my case but what if? I don’t love expecting to be loved back. I love because it is in me to give. This is were the gift is in the giving comes in to play. If a person does not receive the gift, then who is the receiver of the gift? This is something we as a people need to work on in my opinion.

To love some one without expectations is a freeing type of love. Now don’t get it twisted because we all have a need to be loved. It is human nature to desire it. But expecting to be loved in a certain way will cause great pain to your growth.

This kind of love can only be expected as a child seeking love from a parent.

I heard a wise women say “Do it anyways”
http://prayerfoundation.org/mother_teresa_do_it_anyway.htm

So I ask that we all “Do it anyways”

Thanks for helping me learn this lesson even better. I choose you Nana now and forever!

OBMO

Do you really want to be famous?

“I can make you famous” This quote is not as famous but I always think of your picture in the obituary

As a child I was introduced to the modeling profession and hated it. I hated it because of the faking you need to do. I loved the money $50 – $100/hr to take pictures. Boy was I fooled when I learned that you had to fake it a lot.

For me I had to pretend a man was my father while taking pictures with my real mother. This was very hard for me at the time because my Dad was still in my life at that point. I got paid for the job even though they did not use me for the print ad, and that is rare.

My mother God bless her heart that she was never the pushy type to make me do something like this when I was not comfortable with things like this. Don’t get me wrong I had more then enough things that she made me do and I am grateful for that.

We or at least I have experience a shock that really is no shock. I say it is not a shock because did we not think Michael Jackson would die? I did, I just did not think it would be any time soon. Why do you ask? Great question because Michael has been bigger then life for as long as I can remember. And not so large in life at the same time because I grew up being told by my pops that he is my cousin deep down the tree. I always remember thinking if he is our cousin how come he is not at any family reunions or why are we not living large? I know he is related because when my grandpa (pops) dad died his family the Jackson’s were there and they signed the Guest Book.

The real point of this blog is to ask the hard question of when has a child star lived life without issues? I already know that this is a loaded question because life has issues. So what makes child stars so special? I don’t know one that does not, usually they are big issues like drugs, drinking, relationship issues. I know we all have these issues but they seem to be worse with child stars.

In Michael’s case imagine growing up without being able to play at the park or go to school and make new friends? I can’t do it because his way of life is unimaginable to me. I don’t give him a pass but I understand. People are quick to talk about his skin being bleach. I can say one way or another, but what I do know is my cousins great grandpa had that same disease so I know it is real. It can never be proven with Michael because of his fame.

Look at ball players that go Pro after high school. Do they have issues? I only know of one and that is GNet (Kevin Garnet), and I think that has most to do with the fact that he was in boring Minnesota when he started playing Pro Ball. I don’t really know if that is true that he does not have issues, but it makes some sense to my simple mind.

I will end this blog with some good quotes:
“Say Say Say”
“Man in the Mirror”
“Heal the World”
“Black or White”

OBMO